Tuesday, February 09, 2010

The Week of Love: Day 2, The First Crush Edition.

If you recall my new year's resolution was to love more and better. Since this is the week before Valentine's day (and my previous valentine's day tradition involved going to the movies alone - usually to some really couple-y movie...) and all, I thought I'd share some things with you that I love. I can only hope you'll reciprocate the love.

My first crush developed when I moved schools when I was 10. I was the new girl, but I was the new girl that had gone to a hippy school first. I was the weird girl. I liked musicals and wore tie dye and had ridiculously long curly hair. I was not intriguing or cool. But luckily there was another new girl, she and I quickly became inseparable (well, until 8th grade when junior high politics got in the way and I suddenly had no friends because of well I can't remember what (and to be honest I am not sure I even knew then), thank goodness I am not 13 any more). She and I were just waiting to have our first boyfriends. We ached for it. We talked about it endlessly. When were we going to find him? When? We would do anything to try to predict who we were going to marry. MASH, turning the tab on soda cans, a card game which has been dubbed "kings" (a great game where you take the four kings from a deck of cards and name them the names of your crushes. Then, ask the cards questions "who will buy me flowers first" and lay each card down on the kings, when the suits match up that's the boy who will "buy you flowers first for example), ANYTHING.

There was a stoic boy in our class. Oh, how I adored him. His favourite sports team was the Boston Bruins and he wore a Bruins jersey all the time - I didn't even think to judge this, but maybe that's because I wore a pair of nylon shorts and a polar bear t-shirt nearly everyday? He loved war and pilots and flying and his favourite movie was Top Gun. For about six months when asked a question he'd go "that's classified information." He had the most amazing hands. Delicate fingers - that totally wooed me. I loved when I got to sit next to him in class. He was left handed and during reading time always pulled out some kind of giant history book about the civil war or the revolution or world war 2. I liked that he had a passion. It was only a few years later when I realised I didn't like what his passion was about. We grew up and by 15, my crush faded into nothingness. . We never dated. He dated my friends. I dated his friends. We remained fairly close until my last year in college, when I finally understood that the stoic little boy that I adored had turned into a man that I wasn't so fond of.

My first celebrity crush...Well, he's stayed with me longer - ahem, until like now. I first fell for Mr. John Cusack when he starred in that Woody Allen movie Bullets Over Broadway. I loved him. His dark dishevelled hair and his bedroom eyes. I realise this crush isn't anything unique. How many girls love John Cusack? I mean seriously, the man is awesome.

I fell harder when I saw High Fidelity a few years later. Which is still my favourite movie. I made Inspector Climate watch it with me a few weeks ago, his response was to be expected "yeah, it was ok." After hearing Inspector Climate be like "but he's a jerk! he doesn't deserve the girl!" I realised I had to reconsider why this movie was so awesome to me. I've always watched this movie with a more innocent eye - that Rob finally realises the reason girls haven't committed to him was because he wasn't committed to them; he "always had one foot out the door, and that's suicide." And until just recently, I understood that desperation of wanting something but not being able to force yourself to go there.

Plus it includes this totally awesome cover of one of my favourite songs:

I've watched Say Anything...possibly 4 billion times. It contains one of my favourite quotes of all time and even more so when I watched the commentary (by Cameron, John, and Ione) and was told that John wrote it himself as back ground to his character. "I don't want to sell anything, buy anything, or process anything as a career. I don't want to sell anything bought or processed, or buy anything sold or processed, or process anything sold, bought, or processed, or repair anything sold, bought, or processed. You know, as a career, I don't want to do that. " I tried to use this line once on my grandfather who had decided that my degree in Physics wasn't going to get me anywhere and wanted to have a deep and heartfelt (read as he'd tell me to go into banking) lecture discussion on my career goals. To say it didn't go over well is an understatement. But luckily, it was Passover and I'd already gotten him drunk on manischewitz.

I've said this here before, but I'll say it again, John Cusack wanted to Lloyd Dobler to be a guy who was making "optimism a revolutionary act." That's hot.

Who was your first celebrity and/or real life crush?


  1. Is there anyone on the planet who has not had (does not have) a crush on John Cusack? Between Lloyd Dobler and Wesley from A Princess Bride, my teenage expectations for a b/f was someone sweet, noble, and deeply wounded inside. I'm still waiting for my Lloyd Dobler.
    Say Anything Flash Mob

  2. My first celebrity crush was on Pete Duel when I was eleven-ish. He killed himself on New Year's Eve and really cemented his tragic self into my heart.
    My first real person crush was on the new girl in my fourth grade class. I was smitten.

  3. Bobby Goldsboro. I saw him recently on a Time/Life ifomercial and wondered who he was. I, of course, had to laugh at my self.

  4. Ahhh, Jr. High. HARD years. Especially for a chubby Michael/Janet Jackson obsessed teenager such as myself.

    I played MASH all the time too and all those silly games. Fun memories. Loved this post!

  5. First ever celebrity crush? Johnathan Taylor Thomas. I'm kind of embarrassed that my first crush was not as cool as John Cusack.

    My first real crush was in kindergarten. A boy named Chris. We rode the same bus home and one day he asked me, "Who do you like?" and I made him answer first. He said, "you" so I told him "you" back. So cute.

  6. Aura - If there is one person, I bet they're lying. You'll find your Lloyd. I promise.

    Twisted Susan - pete duel? I'll have to google him. Aw, girl crushes are so cute!

    linlah - Eep! I'll have to google him too!

    Kyle - Aw, I was obsessed with Anne of Green Gables THE MUSICAL and the jackson five. We clearly would've been great friends!

    Tina - I am sure mine would have been someone like that too, if I had been allowed to watch tv. What happened to him? Awww, little love is sooo sweet!

  7. Celeb: this one is hard.... I think I'd have to say Cary Grant (even though he's dead I can dream okay)

    Real life: Spandex boy all the way!

  8. Becky - Oh spandex boy! I forgot about spandex boy. How could I forget...mmm Mr. Grant is dreamy.