Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Writing this post is my reward for finishing a job application...

Monday nights are the hardest night of the week for me. It's not because of the Monday dulldrums, which frankly don't exist for me because I am unemployed and it doesn't matter what day of the week it is, I am still looking for a job.

No, Monday nights are difficult because they are the first night of the week that I don't spend with Inspector Climate. Usually, the weekends are spent at his apartment and we spend every waking moment with each other. Sometimes we go to the movies, or explore some part of the city, but recently more often than not we sit with our respective computers and work.

Monday morning arrives and we take the train to our separate work locations: him to his job and me to my "desk" where I spend hours looking for a job. By the time Monday night arrives the exhilaration of "maybe this job will be it!" has warn off and I long to be back in his apartment cooking food in his kitchen and brushing our teeth together. But I go to yoga and with the energy from my practice I come home and cook myself dinner, watch some tv with my housemate, screaming mumbling to myself the whole while "You know what I want to see more of on tv...? LESS CRYING PEOPLE."

Then I climb into bed and desperately miss hearing him tell me he loves me before I drift off to sleep. That's why Monday's are so hard.

13 comments:

  1. Awww! You need to come up with a new Monday evening ritual that has you so busy having fun or just plain distracted that you can't spare even a second to think of Inspector Climate (is that possible?).

    Let me throw in a platitude: absense makes the heart grow fonder.

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  2. Wow. Way to bum me out! Especially because I'm looking for a job right now too (nervous face). Chin up though, at least you have your health! (And if "The Hurt Locker" hasn't come out down under that's just a damn shame ...)

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  3. 1) I used to feel like what when I drove home from boston to NH... it was the worst... but then thursday came around and I was filled with all those feelings from the weekend again :)

    2) You really should see The Hurt Locker! It's amazing!

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  4. Just stopping by to thank you for visiting me on my SITS day and leaving some blog love!

    Blessings,
    LMM

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  5. Jummy - It's mostly just that last five minutes of the day. It's not that I don't see him during the week.

    Dominick - eek, I clearly didn't write this post very well - it was supposed to be sweet not sad! Good luck on the job hunt.

    Becky - I know I know - but seriously haven't heard anything about it here...we're sometimes a bit behind the times.

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  6. Oops - LMM - Thank you for stopping by!

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  7. Cherish the longing. It's better than the alternative my love. :)

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  8. Ugh! The pain of Job Hunting. I spend most of 2008 down in the dumps 'cause of unemloyment. I know the feeling of hoping that this will be the one. Must have sent out thousands of CV's.

    Now it's the boyfriends turn. Got Retrenched last year when everyone went recession crazy. Sad thing is we were starting to talk about getting engaged. Thats not gonne happen till he finds a job... Oi!

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  9. love, you'll get through it. but i understand the feeling... really i do.

    also, i realize i could totally just send you an email but i keep forgetting therefore it is going in this comment: i need your address please. thanks!

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  10. I like to pretend the exhilaration doesn't wear off and make Tuesday my Monday.

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  11. Ev Rev - eek! I don't like the sound of the alternative AT ALL.

    Love and Stuff - yes, the job hunt is a pain. I am sorry you're the partner of someone going through it now!

    Rhea - I shall send you an e-mail asap.

    linlah - Well, I often see him on Wednesdays, so by Tuesday I am all excited again.

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  12. I hope the rest of your week is better than Mondays! sounds like the perfect night to treat yourself to something...thanks so much for stopping by my blog and leaving comments on my SITS day.

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  13. The Hurt Locker was boring.
    Juggling is amazing.

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