Thursday, March 25, 2010

This Morning...

I woke up at 5 AM this morning because either in the real world or in dream world there was a noise so loud that I shot instantly to a "hello good morning, how are you" level of awakedness. The noise can only be described as an Ellen Degeneres "CAHHHH" in my ear. Now to say I am paranoid about there being a possum in my room is a slight understatement. Even though I only sleep with my window open about 4 mm (no joke), I still get worried that it's in here.

This is further compounded because like two weeks ago I reached on top of Inspector Climate's fridge to grab down a loaf of truly disappointing gluten-free bread and there was a cockroach on the bag which totally startled me. Where there is one 'roach there are more so now whenever I look around his kitchen I am on high 'roach alert so as not to be so surprised. Inspector Climate, for obvious reasons, thinks I am nuts.

So anyway, after fretfully looking around for a few minutes and trying to figure out why anything was CAHHHHing next to my ear, it became painfully obvious that I was not going back to sleep. At 5:30 AM, I turned my computer on. Checked some blogs. Attempted to write a post. Attempted to write a post for several more minutes and then by 6:40 AM I was so tired that I definitely needed a nap.

I'm not a natural napper, even at 6:40 in the morning. And I often need something to put me to sleep but more importantly wake me up. I've found that if I fall asleep with an episode of How I Met Your Mother on my computer, I'll wake up just as the end credits roll feeling refreshed. Sometimes (as in this morning), I need three twenty-two minute episodes to wake up feeling groggy refreshed.

It's only 8:30 and I feel like I've had a full day. But there is so much more to come. I have to go the tailors because apparently I'm short. Then I have to go to the doctor because...well there is no elegant way of saying this but The Pill has made me crazy. It's erupted my skin in a mass of rash (sexy!), I actually had to take medication for a headache because I hurt so bad - which to normal people is like, "eh whatever" but I've never taken anything for a headache BEFORE in my whole entire life (I mean ever. The only time I've taken drugs is when my fever has gotten outrageously high and my mom has sat on me and forced something down my throat. I kid ye not).

But if that was it, I'd probably just be like "eh" and still take The Pill, however, that's not it. It's made me an emotional hormonal crying (oh the crying) zombie. See normally during my...um...hm...ladies holiday I might get a little cranky at someone like my mother. But since The Pill I lie in bed a cry for about two weeks out of the month TWO WEEKS. I cannot stop, I cry in the street on the way home from yoga. I cry laying in Inspector Climate's bed while we try to fall asleep. I cry because I can't find something in the grocery store and I cry because I am crying and sad and miserable and oh my god woe is me. In case I haven't explained this well enough...I cry. A lot. (I cry). (Tears). (Real ones). (My pillow may or may not end up damp...)

It's really not working for me. Has anyone else had this problem? With the crying and The Pill?

So that's what's new with me...How you going?

11 comments:

  1. I had just the opposite problem, no crying on the pill. Maybe a lower dose would help.

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  2. i get the crying thing but only for the few days before our friend "Flo"'s monthly visit. How long have you been on it? It usually takes 3 months for your body to get used to it. If it's been longer than that, you definitely need a different pill.

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  3. I know how you're feeling. I recently started a new anxiety medicine, and I can't sleep and I'm a nervous wreck and can't stop crying and hurting etc etc... hang in there, miss.

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  4. I actually had to go on the little monster full time because I was psychotic if I wasn't. Crying was an understatement. Hormonal, painful shipwreck 24/7. Now I have no issues. When I tried to go the normal route of 3 weeks with the pill, and 1 week sugar pill, I was a mess. So it's full time for me, and life is WONDERFUL.
    Talk to your doc and see what your options are. Everyones bodies are different. Keep an open mind. Wishing you the best on it.

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  5. I have no pill stories that involve prescriptions written legitimately.

    I do, however, have a laundry which seems to be hosting RoachFest right now.....

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  6. I went through the same thing with my pills when I was about 20. My doctor changed them up and I'd been on the new ones for about 6 months when I finally broke down in tears to my doctor when I went in for my second 3 month renewal, told her how I could't sleep, how I cried all the time, how I all memories longer than a day old were a grey haze.

    She had just written out a perscription for anti-depressants, then as an afterthought as I was about to walk out of the office, I asked for my pill perscription to be renewed. She put two and two together, realised that the craziness happened when she switched them. It was sooo terrible! (after they switched the pills back, I became normal once again).

    Also, if I saw a possum OR a cockroach, I'd totally freak out and hide in a tree swing.

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  7. It's been a LONG time since the pill, but I remember my mood swings were astronomical.

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  8. linlah - I am a little jealous - no crying would be a dream! A dream I say.

    The Zadge - a few day I could handle...it started out a few days but now it's two weeks.

    Kimberly - Eek! I hope you feel better soon!

    Jessica - interesting! I'm going to try skipping the non-active pills this month.

    Matthew - GROSS.

    Aura - I was fairly ready for the pill to mess with me in some way...I am glad you figured it out though.

    McVal - i thought it was supposed to take away the astronomical mood swings.

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  9. This is exactly why I couldn't be on the pill. I tried it but I'm naturally weepy to begin with and so this just made things CRAZY. Good luck my darling!

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  10. I'm not on the pill but I cry all the time because living in France is like one big dose of contraceptives.

    P.S. LOVE the Ellen "CAHHHHH" reference. Dammit how I miss daytime TV from home.

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  11. I'm behind on your blog... sorry. So, the pill can take some time to get used to. I felt weepy on it when I was younger. I tried different types, but ultimately I stopped taking it. It simply takes time.

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