Monday, May 17, 2010

I hope salt is good for the skin...

On Monday mornings the most common thing I get asked is "How was your weekend?"

How was my weekend.

It oscillated between the achingly lovely and painstakingly sob worthy. I've been so run down lately, what with all the crying and the crying and the being around people and the crying. And do you know what happens when you're run down, you become emotionally run down which leads to more crying which leads to more runned downedness which leads to MORE crying and OH MY GOD I AM SO DEHYDRATED.

Ahem.

So, Inspector Climate and I just hung out together at home. Both his home and my home. We cuddled and watched How I Met Your Mother. And cuddled. And I cooked and started knitting and we cuddled. Did I mention the cuddling? We went up to Doreen to see a zero emissions house and we talked about what our future home will be like. The sustainable loving home that we will build (mayhap from scratch and perhaps not) together for our puppies us. It was rejuvenating and, in spite of sounding lame, gave me little butterflies to picture our future together. It was just what I needed.

However, on Sunday morning... On Sunday morning I talked to my mom on skype and she gave me news of a very close family member that isn't my story to tell, so I won't. But it's not good news. It's news that made me cry (whose suprised?) over and over and over again. In fact, whenever I am alone and have a moment to get lost in my own thoughts I think about it and I cry. Inspector Climate stood by the door while my mom relayed what was happening, the prognosis, the steps, he over heard everything which meant that I didn't have to say the words out loud. I didn't have to say them out loud when I messaged Bobo to tell her - or when I cried into Inspector Climate's shoulder before crying myself to sleep.

How was your weekend?

He has cancer.

15 comments:

  1. Oh no, poor thing. Enjoy some of your favourite things and have lots of Inspector Climate cuddles! Best thoughts coming your way.

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  2. My weekend sounds a lot like your weekend. I found out my dog has cancer.

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  3. I'm so sorry. It must be hard being so far away, too. Chin up.

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  5. Sorry to hear about the bad news. Thank goodness you have your guy to lean on and help you through. And crying is therapeutic and hard to control. So just do it if that's what you need to do to get through. Hang in there :)

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  6. I'm so sorry. Cry as much as you need to.

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  7. Oh honey!!! I am so sorry. Don't fight the feelings, it's natural.

    I am glad to know you have the wonderful IC to take care of you.

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  8. Oh honey!!! I am so sorry. Don't fight the feelings, it's natural.

    I am glad to know you have the wonderful IC to take care of you.

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  9. I spent the weekend crying too. Even when I have a reason to cry, it never make me feel better, just sad and soppy. I know it's hard. My thoughts are with you!

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  10. I'm sorry. There's really nothing else to say. I'm really sorry.

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  11. Thanks you guys, I really appreciate the good thoughts, he'll be fine - I know it.

    Barbara - I am so sorry about your dog! That's awful.

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  12. Hope all ends well. And oh yes crying begets crying.

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  13. I'm so sorry : (

    I really hate cancer. Yeah. Who doesn't?

    I agree with everyone here. Cry as much as you need and want to.

    Hopefully, you guys will have one of the positive outcomes, and eventually the tears will become joyful ones.

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  14. I'm not even going to mention my weekend.

    I've thought about you guys while I was offline dealing with my "extended weekend", and I'm so sorry to hear things have been bumpy.

    I know being away from family is hard, especially with something like this.
    Hang in there.

    I think it's time to get those puppies. ;)

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  15. It gives me incredible pleasure to hear of you describing your plans for a future home with IC. I am such a sucker for a happy ending, and you have really hit the ball out of the park. Congrats.

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