Monday, May 24, 2010

See Spot Cry.

About a week and a half ago, my doctor and I decided that maybe the pill wasn't working out for me and I stopped taking it.. About a week ago, I started wondering if maybe the pill wasn't the source of my problems, because I was still crying all the time. I was worried that I was suddenly stuck that way. That there had been some hormonal shift and now I was just a cry baby with angry red spots all over my body.

My doctor thinks I may be allergic to estrogen. I see this as a problem, being a woman and all. I mean honestly, estrogen? Really? REALLY? really. So, the doc referred me to a gynaecologist to see what words of wisdom they might impart. Here's the thing, I've never been to a gynaecologist and the word speculum is enough for me to cross my legs permanently - I do yoga and have inner thighs of steal.

Wow, I've digressed. A. Lot.

Anyway, so in the midst of crying jags last week, I'd start to get giant ripples of anxiety like "this is never going to change and I am going to be stuck in this broken state FOREVER." Then Saturday rolled around. No crying. A day without tears! An anomaly! Sunday - not a single drop of moisture sprouted from my eye. And here, Monday is coming to a close and I am not crying. In fact, I feel like I could possibly even handle some rough patch, like the supermarket not stocking something vital - like let's say corn tortillas. Yeah, I said it. I'm mentally tough, my bitches. CLEARLY.

Three days without crying. THREE. I can't remember the last time I went three days without crying.

How was your weekend? Did you get to enjoy three consecutive days of not crying? I hope so, because it's the shit, y'all.


  1. Hip Hip Hooray for the no cry streak! I recently went off the pill and I had about 2 months of pure body freak out cry/hate episodes. But I have to say you do have me thinking about taking some Yoga classes.

  2. Yay for no crying!
    But wait, you have never been to the gyno? Who gives you the pill? My regular doctor would not give it to me so I have to go to the gyno. In any case, don't stress about it. Athough the whole speculum thing is a pain in the ass, it is more uncomfy than painful and it is normally quick. I say normally cuz I have a uterus that likes to "hide" and it's not quick for me, but for most people it is no biggie. Good luck girly!

  3. you know d, the gyno is really not that big a deal. i know i was totally freaked out by it at first too but honestly not that bad. and um, what about your annual checkup (not to sound too mom-like) but it's kinda important.

  4. I thought I heard once that it takes a little while after you stop taking the pill for its effects to totally work their way out of the body?

    Good luck at the gyno. I hope you're not allergic to being a woman.

  5. Oh, I'm so happy for you. A good cry is necessary sometimes, but I can understand how it can totally suck if you have to cry everyday.

    I have never been to the gyno either. Eeek!

  6. Seriously. No OBGYN-ohhh?
    How the bloody hell did you get the pill??!

    I am SOOOO moving to Australia, like yesterday.
    .. I think you read "that" blog post of mine.

    I'm pretty sure I'm allergic to being a woman too, so, welcome to the club. Though I HAVE to take the pill or I'm a mental cry baby writhing in agony and killing everything in site.

    Glad your feeling better. It certainly isn't for everyone.

  7. I'm so happy for you! That is awesome. You should probably go see the scary gyno anyways. If you I'll go.

  8. Chicken - THREE CHEERS! Totally take some yoga. It helps me find my zen. and flexiness.

    Cammy - The doctor just gave me the pill...I hope I don't have a hide and seek uterus. That does NOT sound like fun.

    Rhea - The joy of not having annual check ups. Being a virgin had perks!

    Tina - It does! For me it took a week and half before the crying stopped. And I still have the full body rash. FOXY

    DDG - A good cry is necessary...but crying a couple of times a day for no reasons at not.

    Jessica - they just gave it to me. they being my doctor.

    Megs - Thank you! it feels great! Hears to day four!

  9. Heyyyyyy! Lady I hate to tell you this but as a responsible for your body having sex type woman you NEED to see a gyno!! At least once a year!! You've never had a pap smear??? Oh darling, its SO important. Get thee to a gyno!!

  10. Hey, not to freak you out or anything, but what do these spots look like and do they itch or go away? Do they become raised if they are scratched? It sounds like an allergy of some type to me. A friend of mine can't take the pill because of the crying but I've never heard of an estrogen allergy. You probably need a good allergist or something. Allergies can also affect your brain if there is enough systemic involvement of the allergy in your body. So that can be one reason why you feel so depressed.

  11. No crying over here just an ongoing hairy m*therf*cker of a bad mood.