And to be clear, it isn't that I had some calendar with dates marked for when stuff would be accomplished or how I'd feel at what age, but there are certainly some things that I pictured that certainly aren't my reality and now. Some are clear choices I made a long the way. Decisions had to be made and I chose one thing over another for whatever reason and that doesn't mean that they're wrong choices or right ones, but they have certainly led the way to different. I thought maybe I'd take some time to reflect on those childhood aspirations and projections.
Growing up if anyone asked me where I was going to live when I was an adult I only had one answer -- I was going to kick my parents out of our house and live there. Clearly. I could never imagine "home" being somewhere else besides that house on a hill in New England. What would waking up look like if I didn't have this view:
My mom brings up these stories of my explaining to family members how I would kick them out and live in our house a lot now. She shakes her head sadly and wonders where things went wrong, how instead of never leaving home, I ended up, literally, on the opposite side of the world. In some ways it's easy to chronicle how I came to live in Australia. It was a three part move
1. I hated college so much that I really needed to escape it.
2. I've always been obsessed with Australia - kind of inexplicably.
3. Once I did a semester abroad in Australia, and was so happy, I had to come back.
In other ways, it still boggles the mind that when I open my door I walk outside into Melbourne. Where my August birthday is a winter event and my view isn't various shades of green but a suburban street. To say this isn't how I pictured it is the biggest understatement. I think it goes without saying that I wouldn't have it any other way.
When I picture the future though, things haven't changed all that much. In fact that when I think about moving back to the US (which I do often and Inspector Climate and I talk about a lot too), there is only one place I can ever imagine living. Home.
Are you where you pictured you'd be?