Wednesday, October 26, 2011

I believe this is what is referred to as phoning it in

I have to go to work in a few minutes but I feel compelled to blog.

Here's the thing, first of all by "I have to go to work soon" I basically mean I'll be leaving to get there about 20 minutes early. I don't know why I do this, I often feel guilty then for leaving early (which is totally feasible we have a flexible work day). So there's that.

I'm also preparing myself mentally for my second internal ultrasound tomorrow.  Why yes, I am squeezing my thighs together as we speak.  I am not looking forward to having it done again, that's $250 I could spend on smoothies.

In brighter and lighter news, Inspector Climate and I are getting married in T-13 days.  Last night as we cuddled in bed we talked about how two weeks from now we'll be married.  We talked about how unscary that seems and how lucky we are. We talked about how in past relationships we felt compelled to try to change ourselves or try to be someone we're not to make the other person like us...but together we don't need to try so hard. We don't need to change ourselves.  Because together our individual neurosis (and trust me, we both have them. Although his are more along the lines of the fact he panics when a lap top isn't plugged in and mind are more along the lines of being a bit of a nut) just work together.

Yesterday, I went to buy a good friend a birthday present and started talking to the cashier and partners and fiancĂ©es came up and I mentioned I was getting married in two weeks and she told me that I seemed calm and collected for a bride-to-be. What's to freak out about?  I'm marrying someone I love.  What's scary in that?

What's more scary is this internal ultrasound. I insist on wearing socks (and you know how I feel about socks (I hate socks. I never wear socks. Snowing: no socks)) because I feel like if I'm going to be naked from the waist down my feet better  be covered.  Look I cannot explain it, but socks must be worn.

So um, how are you?

21 comments:

  1. I had to get an internal ultrasound at the end of August. I think it helped that I didn't know it was going to be internal until I got there, so I didn't have a chance to freak out. It was HELLA awkward, but not as bad as I would have imagined. It didn't help any that the doctor doing it was young and cute. It was kind of cool though because they had the screen up on a wall so I could see my insides the whole time!

    Anyway, I hope yours goes ok, and I hope the diagnosis is favorable. Mine ended up with major surgery, but I'm fine now.

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  2. The whole changing-for-someone-else thing reminds me of a list from Cracked on "4 Pieces of Relationship Advice Movies Need to Stop Giving": http://www.cracked.com/blog/4-pieces-relationship-advice-movies-need-to-stop-giving/

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  3. That internal ultrasound sounds scary! I hope everything turns out okay. I don't understand why people expect you to be anything but calm and collected about your wedding (and PhD!) We had our wedding in Hong Kong and I felt no panic and worry at all!

    But people make me freak out about my not freaking out about my PhD!

    Have a great day!

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  4. Like "abbysline.com" I didn't know I was going to have an internal ultrasound until they did about a month ago and it was the weirest thing ever AND I had my period because I didn't know that the ultrasound was going to be inside. The tech didn't even bat an eye. She was just all, go to the restroom, take your tampon out, and come back. Ew!

    13 days!!! Woot! So excited for you!!=)

    Oh, and I get the socks thing. I left my socks on too. Just feels safer.

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  5. wow that's so soon now! how exciting :)

    hope the ultrasound goes okay... certainly doesn't sound too fun. just try to focus on how soon you'll be married!

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  6. Happy almost-wedding! Meeting the person that you don't feel you have to change the core of who you are to fit with is just lovely...it's what I'm looking for.

    Aww, I hope your ultrasound goes swimmingly.

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  7. I hope it goes well for you tomorrow. No socks?

    Must have great circulation!

    Its that time of year..I have to wear socks to bed.

    brrr...here.

    Keep smiling. You have a lot to smile about.

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  8. Are you going to change your name to Decoybetty Climate?

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  9. Internal ultrasound is no bueno. But you are getting married soon!!! So lovely!

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  10. Ouch, not comfortable. I've had one internal ultrasound and it was terrible. I'm a fairly new reader-why do you have to have it done? Poor thing!

    Yay, less than 2 weeks til your wedding! These days are going to fly by. Enjoy every minute of it. Nothing is better than finding the crazy person that can put up with your crazy self. Match and I are total dorks together, and I wouldn't have it any other way.

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  11. Good luck with the ultrasound. It doesn't sound like anything I'd enjoy doing. Hope everything is ok up in there.

    Oh, and I never wear socks either. Doesn't matter the season. I can't sleep with socks on either or I feel like I'm suffocating.

    Yay for wedding in less than 2 weeks!!

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  12. Ha. With you on the socks. The internal ultrasound -excuse me- but sucks balls. Also...when I was pregnant and they were doing err exams, socks were a must! Admittedly though my socks almost never match, so that was always a conversation topic with the doctor. Ha.

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  13. I am so excited for you two to be married, from everything you write you just both seem so happy. I love that!

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  14. Great post. You've found your match :)

    Ultrasound for...? I'm out of the loop I think...

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  15. Good luck with the awful ultrasound inspections. Been there, never want to do that again if I can help it. I'm exhausted, think I need to catch up on some sleep :)

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  16. Abbysline - A young and cute doctor would certainly have made it more awkward. Eep! Major Surgery!

    Iris - Oooh, I'll definite check out that post.

    Vanisha - It's definitely not pleasant - and seriously awkward.

    Teacher girl - Seriously, this story totally freaks me out - How could they not even FLINCH.

    Lozzzz - It is very exciting.

    Jummy - It is very lovely. I think finding it certainly often comes with some personal growth first.

    Ellie - Definitely not socks to bed! Never socks to bed.

    The Zadge - I wanted to combine our names but they don't really combine well "decoymate" or "Clibetty" aren't ideal!

    Oneika - I know, I hope I don't need another one for a long long time.

    Date girl - I've been suffering from really severe pain episodes for several months now, this is my second ultrasound.

    Crystal - EXACTLY. socks are NOT ok. I think I have claustrophobic feet.

    Alexa - The socks are strangely comforting in such an awkward situation.

    Krysten - We're very happy!

    Ashley - Thank you! Ovary cysts!

    Azra - Yes, twice in a month and a half is too many ultrasounds in my book!

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  17. That's awesome! About the wedding not the ultrasound. But seriously I am so happy for you guys. That's exactly how it is supposed to feel. Easy and loving.
    XO
    Sam

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  18. I was calm bride-to-be, too.

    After all, there was going to be cake!

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  19. You two are so good for each other :)

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  20. You and Mr. Climate have a great thing going, we wish you every happiness...

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  21. A VERY belated congratulations on the wedding. And the socks thing? Not that weird.

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