It's August 26, unless you're in Australia and then this is being posted on the 27th, but written on the 26th (in the wee hours of the morning, if you're in the US). Wow. Sorry. Anyway.
So, a year ago. I was in Inspector Climate's child hood town. Getting coffee with his grandparents and cousins - we were telling them about our visa woes how incredibly frustrating it was that I had to take all these tests again. Inspector Climate's mom joked "Why don't you just MARRY her already!"
We laughed, I smiled inwardly knowing that we'd been talking about it for about a month. I had been to the hospital for unknown stomach pain, but had been waiting to go to the doctor because I didn't want to have to lie to the immigration doctors.
How was I to know that the next day, Inspector Climate would propose?
I was about to be unemployed again.
But really what was happening was I was the brink for a whirlwind year that I had never ever expected. I would get engaged, married, travel to Vanuatu and the US, experience pain that I have never ever been able to describe, get The Job, have The Surgery, plan the second wedding, frolic in unprecedented angry, and dive to the lowest lows of depression (plus made macarons!).
And now, exactly a year before that all started, I finally feel like I'm coming out of the other side. I haven't cried in weeks (a milestone!), I haven't become irrationally angry over...whatever is happening in a single day, I haven't drastically overreacted - and my emotions which have been like landmines have settled into their general up and downs.
Tomorrow (today) is my birthday (my golden birthday - 27 on the 27th) and 26 has just been...wild. Oh 26, you rascal...you didn't hold back did you? Oh no, you flew by. You threw everything at me. And you know what...thank you.
In yoga (oh here she goes again, with the yoga sutras!), they often say be grateful for what your body can do and not resentful for what it cannot. And while during 26, I often was more resentful than I was grateful - on the eve of 27, I feel indescribable gratitude for all that experience and all that I can achieve.
Here's to 27.