Saturday, January 26, 2013

More bitter, less sweet.

Let's preface this by saying that the people involved are lovely and probably trying to do the best they can. And I like them. I do. It just happens that at this moment in time, probably despite their best intentions they are making me feel like an ant watching a giant shoe squashing me the ant.

This is all to say that my job ends Thursday next week. And I was coming to terms with the end of the job. I've applied for jobs, I've gotten rejection letters (on Christmas Eve? Necessary? No), and I've gotten shortlisted for pre-interview tests. On top of that the Dream Job of all Dream Jobs has just been advertised.

Yes, I'm coming to terms with the fact that unemployment looms, and I even was beginning to look forward to it! Imagine all the blogging and yoga I can do! Imagine all the baking! Imagine!

But last week, they essentially re-advertised for my job (you know the one that wasn't needed any more, the reason I'm leaving in the first place...yes, that one). They did it without really telling me it was happening. They did it ignoring a lot of the recommendations I made on what would make for better roles.

I think it goes without saying that I'm not feeling great about my workplace at the moment. In fact, on Thursday I spent the day at my desk fighting off tears.

I keep waking up in the mornings horrified and angry all over again. So, that's why I'm writing this, I don't think that talking to anyone at work will change anything and I'm honestly not looking for a change. I'm looking for an acknowledgement that this could have and should have been handled better. And since that won't happen, I'm hoping that writing about my disappointment and anger will make this last week less...painful.

I think it makes it worse that I like the people I work with, and I love the organisation and what they do - and that's what hurts. Because now that love is waning.

So there it is, that's what's new with me.

How are you?

22 comments:

  1. I am heartbroken by this post. I know that I cannot say or do anything to make this better. All I can do is tell you my thoughts.

    I truly do believe that everything happens for a reason. I know you will find something that you were meant to do. Something that will make you happier than this job.

    I am here if you need anything.

    You are in my thoughts!

    XO Lourdes

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  2. That's an awful thing for them to do. It must create a very difficult atmosphere at work.

    Good luck with the dream job of all dream jobs, though (I assume you're applying for it). It sounds like you're about due for some good news.

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  3. Oh, that's appalling. Really appalling. It's possibly a breach of unfair dismissal laws too since it wasn't a genuine redundancy.

    But even if it isn't, what a bunch of jerks! I say we go egg the office under cover of darkness. Who's in?

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  4. Can they even do that? In Denmark the unions have made rules, so if a company let someone go due to the position being downsized, the company aren't allow to hired anyone for a similar position the next 6 months or so...
    I feel for you, and I'm proud of you looking forward to having time for yoga, baking etc.

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  5. I suck at comforting sad people because I don't know what to say to not hurt them more but I hope that even if you're sad, there's still that hope lingers inside you that bad things happen because big, good and happy things are on its way. Cry if you want but don't forget to smile and search for happiness once in a while. :)

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  6. Oh I'm so sorry to hear all of this!! It sounds awful to have to sit out your last few weeks with all of this happening around you! It's terrible! All of the should have gone better for you - I'm sorry!

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  7. I can understand how you must feel. That is totally wrong of this place.

    Wishing you the best with whatever might come.

    I hope you get through your last days there.

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  8. You'll bounce back to an even better gig, I know it!

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  9. Like Lourdes, I feel heartbroken reading your words -- I've felt similar hurt with work on two occasions and it's like why, WHY?!

    Cuddle up with IC tonight and sooth your soul with yoga and baking tomorrow. Hang in there these last few days <3

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  10. Like Lourdes, I feel heartbroken reading your words -- I've felt similar hurt with work on two occasions and it's like why, WHY?!

    Cuddle up with IC tonight and sooth your soul with yoga and baking tomorrow. Hang in there these last few days <3

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  11. You've gotten dumped by a job, employ the same strategy you would with a relationship; cry it out then go get a nicer, better looking job that will be sweet & love you for YOU.

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  12. Ooh. Twisted Susan gives excellent advice! I hope you feel better soon darling!

    (P.S. We have a friend in town visiting from Australia. It makes me think of you!)

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  13. I'm sorry about the loss of your job. How sneaky and wrong of them to re-advertise your job without even taking your input seriously. I'm sure they will regret it.

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  14. Keep your head high and your eyes on the prize! I too lost my job recently for some completely unforseen complications. But on the bright side, you CAN spend all your time blogging and doing the things you love...until it gets a little dull!

    Good luck with your dream job! XO

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  15. I think it's brave to complete the notice. It's already very difficult and heartbreaking to show up with a feeling of unfair treatment, saying goodbye to the work place you love. The positive is time. Time for you to enjoy all the things you love like blogging and baking. I wish you all the very best.

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  16. Hi.

    Now it is my turn to have a look around at your place -- and I like it! :) I am a fellow vegetarian and look forward trying your recipes.

    I know a little bit how you feel. When I was still at uni I worked in a pub during the summer. You know those ones having an open patio // beergarden thing. I served the beers and other drinks, and it was the soccer world cup 2006. The place was buzzing. I asked whether I could call my collegue to help out which she kindly offered and which was also regular practice in that place.
    I did not do anything wrong. Just working my ass off to serve the crowds, and still, I got fired the next day. For no particular reason, others assured me. And my true feeling is that I got fired just because I wasn't this hottie in short mini skirts, size zero and large boobs.
    Anyways, I felt so miserable, and that was only a student job.,,,It must be so devastating for you.

    Anyways, what I actually wanted to say was, that maybe there is something better, bigger waiting for you! Sometimes it's only the fear of the change which is holding us from looking forward to the unknown. I know, that won't help in this moment, but maybe some day you look at the bigger picture and laugh and think how good these circumstances were, because you would not have resigned yourself...

    And until the next challenge is ready, waiting for you focus on things you like such as yoga and blogging ;-)

    Wishing you strength!!

    Svenjaxx
    Happybluebird

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  17. Ugh, that is terrible, I am furious for you! Thinking about you and hoping you get your Dream Job soon!

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  18. Oh gosh =(. That is just horrible, and bad business. I really hope that they realize what they did was very wrong.

    I am praying for you!

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  19. Sorry to hear about this. I'll be sending good job vibes your way.

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  20. That is probably the rudest thing that I have ever heard. There are much, much, much better ways for them to have handled it, and I can see why you wouldn't want to talk about any of it with them.

    I remember a while ago though, you talked about how your co-workers don't really have balance in their lives, they are overworked, overstressed, and are missing out on some of the little things. The little things that are sometimes the most important moments in our lives. A better job, one where people truly savor those little moments, is just around the corner for you. Fret not.

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  21. Blarh, your reaction is completely justified to me. I wish you the best of luck in your job hunt. Don't despair - I am sure something better will come your way. And maybe in the meantime, you can take some time to relax a bit

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  22. I think that's pretty shady of your work place. Just my opinion!

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