Well, hello. It's been a while. So long in fact, that I needed about an hour and a half of reading blogs before I had the courage to open up a new post for fear I had forgotten how to do this thing.
So here we are. The first day of 2013 is coming to a close. And I wish everyday could be like this one. I watched Tennis on tv. Inspector Climate and I sweat our way through a yoga class together, but more importantly we spent all day together. With impromptu cuddles in the kitchen or snuggles by his desk. I spent hours cooking dinner without feeling rushed or pressured by anything other than my rumbling tummy.
We went to an afternoon showing of The Hobbit last night and then were in bed by 9:30, which frankly is how I like to spend New Years, sleeping.
As we cuddled before we fell asleep, I apologised for this year being so full of angry and sadness on my part and Inspector Climate just said "but what about all the good times."
I think it says a lot about us that I dwell on all that anger while he just remembers the good stuff. The truth is, I'm so ready for 2012 to be over. I hope that being so ready means I'm going to be able to let go of all the anger. Unclench my jaw that I've only recently realised has been wired shut for the last 12 months, and take a big deep breath and embrace what's new.
I want to let go of how cheated I feel that this "newly wed" year has been less blissful and more of me being a psycho bitch. Oh anger, stay in 2012 please.
I don't generally do New Year's Resolutions because I find the day quite arbitrary, I'd much rather make promises to myself as I turn a year older.
So really, I just want to say goodbye to 2012. I want to fully relinquish the anger and leave it where it belongs, behind me. I want to part ways with the sadness that came with losing my job, and just let it go. Let it go.
What are you happy to leave in 2012?