Tuesday, January 01, 2013

Realisations not resolutions.

Well, hello. It's been a while. So long in fact, that I needed about an hour and a half of reading blogs before I had the courage to open up a new post for fear I had forgotten how to do this thing.

So here we are. The first day of 2013 is coming to a close. And I wish everyday could be like this one. I watched Tennis on tv. Inspector Climate and I sweat our way through a yoga class together, but more importantly we spent all day together. With impromptu cuddles in the kitchen or snuggles by his desk. I spent hours cooking dinner without feeling rushed or pressured by anything other than my rumbling tummy.

We went to an afternoon showing of The Hobbit last night and then were in bed by 9:30, which frankly is how I like to spend New Years, sleeping.

As we cuddled before we fell asleep, I apologised for this year being so full of angry and sadness on my part and Inspector Climate just said "but what about all the good times."

I think it says a lot about us that I dwell on all that anger while he just remembers the good stuff. The truth is, I'm so ready for 2012 to be over. I hope that being so ready means I'm going to be able to let go of all the anger. Unclench my jaw that I've only recently realised has been wired shut for the last 12 months, and take a big deep breath and embrace what's new.

I want to let go of how cheated I feel that this "newly wed" year has been less blissful and more of me being a psycho bitch. Oh anger, stay in 2012 please.

I don't generally do New Year's Resolutions because I find the day quite arbitrary, I'd much rather make promises to myself as I turn a year older.

So really, I just want to say goodbye to 2012. I want to fully relinquish the anger and leave it where it belongs, behind me. I want to part ways with the sadness that came with losing my job, and just let it go. Let it go.

What are you happy to leave in 2012?

25 comments:

  1. I just sent you an email :)

    I tend to only remember the bad/sad/stressful things in 2012, while Max remembers the positive things. Maybe it's a guy thing?

    I can't say that 2012 was a bad year for me - I've had a lot worse since living in France. But, I was angry/depressed more than I'd like to admit, so if I have any sort of New Year's resolution, it's to try and stay positive and not be such an anxious mess. Easier said than done though. We'll see what happens :)

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  2. I hope 2013 brings a lot of wonderful things your way. I think you are on a good start. Letting the bad go.

    Maybe you'll have to jot down the good things..somewhere. Just don't lose the calender..like I would.

    All the best in 2013!

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  3. I am VERY happy to leave my ex in 2012. If I never hear from him again I'll be a happy girl.

    Happy 2013!

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  4. This seems to be the theme everywhere - most people are quite happy to see the back of 2012. Letting it go is the best way to deal with it. Here's to an extraordinarily wonderful 2013 for all of us!!

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  5. hey. don't guilt yourself over it. it's okay. :]

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  6. Cheers to 2013 and new beginnings! Happy New Year! :)

    xo, Yi-chia
    Always Maylee

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  7. I have to say, I didn't really love 2012 either. So saying goodbye has been celebration in and of itself. :)

    Needless to say, I pray this year will be full of goodness!

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  8. Here's to hoping that your 2013 is an absolutely phenomenal year, Deidre! I'm sure it will be. Happy New Year!

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  9. I hope 2013 is a great year for you! Happy new year!

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  10. Letting Go is the hardest thing I've ever learned to do. But there is always a new day to start again. I wish you all the luck and best wishes in the New Year! You can do it! =)

    Ergo-Blog

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  11. I hope you have a good 2013. And I hope you can leave the bad bits of 2012 well behind you :-)

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  12. Letting go of all the heavy weight and bad feelings of 2012 behind is a great move. All the best to starting anew. A toast to the new year to you too and to new beginnings :)

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  13. Started 2013 sick (haven't been sick in years) but was with family (the ones who made me sick!) so that's what is important. 2012 wasn't the best year but I'm actively choosing to remember the good parts (not my strong suit). All the best to you in 2013!

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  14. Hear, Hear Deirdre. I'm more than happy to leave it behind. Hope you have a happier 2013 with a free and easy jaw ;)

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  15. We spent New Years Day with a lot of sleeping and cuddling, too. :-) And I agree, I am ready to say goodbye to 2012 and hello to a brand new, fresh year. I hope this one is fantastic for you!

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  16. Realizations not resolutions...I like it!

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  17. No worries, I think blogging is like riding a bike, you just hop back on. ;)

    Here's to a better 2013. It's good to let go of the past and a new year is the perfect time to do that.

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  18. it's really good to use this time to leave things behind completely. hard but so cleansing!

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  19. Just be positive and optimistic! Leave the anger in 2012. I definitely need to do the same thing and have made a promise to myself that I will make an effort to do that.

    The last 2 days of the new year has definitely been good to me so far. Hopefully the rest of the days are just as good for me (and you!!!!!)

    Xo Lourdes

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  20. I hope the coming year is a happier one for you!

    I don't know that there is much I'd like to leave behind...except all the school loans I took out. ;)

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  21. I agree, anger can so stay in 2012. Happy new year friend!!!

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  22. Psycho bitch happens to the best of us! I'm trying to leave that in 2012 too, but I felt a twinge of it yesterday.

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  23. I'm glad you had such a fabulous first day of 2013!!! Sending you best wishes for a fabulous year! And for a record, I don't believe you we're a psycho bitch in 2012. We all have those occasional moments, but on the whole you are a grounded, caring and wise woman, even in the midst of anger. Here's to letting go!!!

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  24. here's to a happy & blissful 2013 :)

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  25. I think 2013 can be a great year for you!

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