I received an email today from a high school friend about another high school friend who I shall Silver (not his real name). Apparently, Silver will spend the rest of his life in prison because he killed someone.
I don't really know why I'm sharing this, it seems like a life time ago that I even knew Silver. We were in year 9 together, and we friends because of another girl. But we were pretty close. We confided in each other sometimes - he teased me a lot, not in a mean way but in a flirting way. I'm in shock. It's hard for me to believe that someone I knew when I was in high school would be spending their life in prison. When I think back to Silver, and I think about where I thought he'd be, I imagined him being the one shot and killed - which isn't nice either I suppose. As I said, I'm not sure why I feel compelled to share this with you. All I know is I have some feelings...and this is where I come to talk about feelings.
May will be my 10 year high school reunion and you couldn't pay me to attend. Not because I didn't like high school or the people I went to school with, but first of all, I live in Australia and second of all, the person I would want to reunite with most was a year below me and thus wouldn't be attending. Anne.
Anne and I met in the bathroom. Ok, we didn't really meet in the bathroom, but we became friends in the bathroom. We had to change in the bathroom every day for sports and it became our time to unwind. Of course we eventually took our friendship out of the bathroom, because you know it's a bathroom, we experimented with hair dye, we stacked wood for my dad, we watched Dawson's Creek, we underbaked brownies, and we made stellar macaroni and cheese.
I think of who I was then. Suffering from depression but just thinking that was how everyone was and so driven. I thought anything below a 98% was failing. I spent every waking moment studying and reading and writing essays. I wonder if I used up all my drive in those 4 years and have none left. I certainly can't find that motivation any more.
Where were you 10 years ago?