Tuesday, March 19, 2013

It's here!

The moment was bound to arrive. The one that took the F out of Funemployment and then used that F to flip me the bird.  Do you know what you're left with when funemployment is gone? Just unemployment.

I thought I'd gotten pretty good at handling rejection. I've already had two interviews and didn't get either of the positions, I've applied to dozens of jobs without getting interviews. And it's not like this is even my first time, I'm an old hat at unemployment.

All this is to say, I got two rejections today which have sent me spiralling deep into the "I suck at life, am worthless, and no one will ever hire me" hole. It's not a good hole, people. These particular two rejections I think were more than acutely painful because they were

a) jobs I wanted. For obvious reasons, it hurts more.

b) the rejections were prior to them even meeting me. For some reason I find it hurts less post interview then pre-interview.

c) I was actually proud of the applications. I was qualified. They were in social media and online community building.

But apparently that isn't enough, which is really to say that I'm not enough.

To add to this feeling of complete and utter uselessness, there has not been a single job to apply for in the last two weeks.

So here I am, at 10 pm - which if you know me at all you know that is seriously past my bedtime by several hours - decidedly not sleeping because I'm too busy being a crazy worrier.

Man, did anyone out there miss these angst filled unemployment posts? Anyone? No, me either.

As an aside, last night Inspector Climate sat up in bed and swept his hands over the covers anxiously. Then he jumped out of bed and stood next to it staring at the ground for a moment. When I asked him what he was doing he mumbled  incoherently - but I thought between mumbles he said "there's a mouse!" - and then turned the light on to rummage under the bed. I asked him again what he was doing and he just said "Grrr, I swear this time that something was there." This morning when I asked him if he remembered his little night time excursion he told me that he didn't think there was a mouse on the bed, he thought there was a baby octopus.

Duh.


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25 comments:

  1. Oh dear... I feel your pain - I've been there several times before myself. And I have no doubt I'll be there again after I graduate. SIGH.

    Shall we schedule another Dessert Day and make those peppermint brownies to make it at least marginally better?
    xx

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  2. I'm so sorry that you got double-rejected in one day! How awful!! I truly hope that things turn around for you soon!

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  3. I'm so sorry about these rejections! I know it's hard, but try to look on the bright side of unemployment...more time for yoga, cooking fun dinners, having a clean house.

    I hope something great comes your way soon!

    - Val @ KnotTiedDown.com

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  4. I have no idea how life is like in Australia when it comes to job agencies that are not "temp" agencies but maybe perhaps seeking one of those out? I got my job in a sheer panic when my last company closed but when I went to the right agency I was placed pretty quickly with some of my absolute musts demands. Maybe that's an outlet to pursue?

    Or maybe you can take a class or something to boost up your resume? I took an excel class that actually only cost $20 for 5 weeks and I made sure it is popping out on my resume. I remember my boss mentioning the class as a plus at some point.

    Don't get yourself down on the jobs that didn't even want an interview. Here in the U.S. some companies HAVE to post a new job listing even though they know they will only hire from within so it kind of gives people false hope that there is even a position with an a real opportunity of a job. That drives me nuts!

    Ahh, sorry I wrote you a book comment. Please keep your spirits high and don't worry something in one way shape or form will come!! =)

    Ergo - Blog

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  5. I'm sorry to hear that you got turned down for jobs you wanted. Here's hoping the right one comes along for you soon.

    I laughed put loud about the baby octopus.

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  6. Oh, boo. Hang in there doll, the right thing will come along!

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  7. I remember the first rejection I had from a job I really wanted. It SUCKS. And after a year of searching it isn't sucking any less.

    Hopefully we can both hang in there.

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  8. Sorry to hear this, girl! The problem isn't you, you know that. It's the competitive job market! Plus everything happens for a reason. Those jobs just weren't meant for you!

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  9. ahhh good luck! job hunting is so annoying and hard and discouraging. i went through a LOT of that as well, so i feel ya. i actually felt more disappointed when i'd get an interview and then not get the job as opposed to the pre-interview rejections. either way, it hurts and you just have to stay as positive as you can! i know it's tough :/
    -- jackiejade.blogspot.com

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  10. I don't think you should blame yourself. It often is the job market that is not functioning well. I hate the job market most times. I especially hate when employers don't reply at all, or reply negative and don't give a reason. Than how's a girl supposed to work on her weaker points? It's a terribly exhausting and daunting task after a while, but I hope you can find the strength to continue looking and know that one day the reward will be grand! I wish you the best of luck. Hang in there Deidre!

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  11. I'm so sorry you're going through this. It really is super hard being unemployed. Hope you find something you'll love very soon. :-)

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  12. You are telling yourself some pretty terrible stories about what those "No thank you" calls/emails/letters mean. They just mean it wouldn't have been a good, sustainable, happy place for you.

    The right thing will come along with divine timing. Hang in there!

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  13. I'm sad for you that it isn't going well.

    This? "But apparently that isn't enough, which is really to say that I'm not enough". Nuh-uh... it's not that you aren't good enough. There is more likely an oversupply of candidates, and unfortunately they can only choose one. You will eventually be that one!

    Have you ever had a look at the Ask A Manager website? She answers loads of questions about unemployment and job seeking (with a hilariously snarky sense of humour). If nothing else, you might find it amusing.

    Thinking of you!!

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  14. Oh that sounds rough! Keep your head up...employers sometimes make choices that have nothing to do with the proper candidate!

    A baby octopus...hahaha!

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  15. So sorry that this period of unemployment is proving to be as frustrating as the last one. I had really hoped it would be a short one ending in a great job. It's not a reflection on you though, it's the awful market.

    Lucky you have IC's night time craziness to keep you pepped up though right?

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  16. Oh, I'm so so sorry. I hope you find something great! And I totally feel your job hunting pain.

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  17. So sorry to hear that. Keeping my fingers crossed for you.

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  18. That moment is awful and I just hope it doesn't last. I remember the first time I reached that point: no-one was offering me employment and to cap it off, Centrelink sent me a letter telling me I had to attend a compulsory session on finding work, since I was clearly rubbish at doing it on my own behalf. Literally twenty-four hours later, I was offered a job, but that feeling of self-doubt was awful. I do hope something perfect comes your way soon.

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  19. Too bad you are not on Bloglovin. I wanted to follow you :-) :-)

    xx

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  20. These are the toughest times to deal with. You are braver than you know. Keep hope alive that someone will see what a great, creative employee you will be!

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  22. also i wanted to say, i get how you feel, im unemployed and so far have had no interviews. if you ever want to chat about it, come to my blog and we can chat. xx hang in there

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  23. Oh man. I cannot say I understand. BC although I have been unemployed, i did not apply for my DREAM jobs. So, rejection hurt. But not as bad. I truly am sorry that you are going through this. I always think "They would like me (and know I am the one for the job) if they JUST MEET ME)". I get so frustrated when they turn me down without meeting me. It's annoying!

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  24. I feel your pain. I was applying for jobs and getting rejected or ignored for two years before I finally found a job. And then I quit because it turned out that my boss was a total creep. And then I was unemployed again for three months until I found my current job. I applied for at least 200 jobs during my unemployment and got a whole five job interviews out of it. I hope that you'll find something sooner than I did because the worry monster is not a fun companion. And Sidenote: A baby octopus sounds adorable.

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  25. I wish I could understand as well - I've been turned away for so many jobs I beleive (and in cases have been told) just because I don't currently live there. Nothing against me or my qualities, just the fact I dont live there right now. That sucks. Good luck finding something - it will come soon, and don't get too down!

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