Thursday, May 09, 2013

I think overall we can assess that I'm feeling anxious

One of my favourite blogs, Why Girls are Weird, does a weekly series she calls 'currently' where by using the following headings she writes about what's news. Today, I'm stealing it. Also, my second article is up on the Green Steve blog, I'd love it if you'd pop over, check it out and say hi.



Thinking about: Decisions. On Tuesday I had a job interview for a pretty amazing job and opportunity. However, I'm afraid if I'm offered the job the decision of whether to take it or not will completely overwhelm me. It is an amazing opportunity, however it's only a 4 month job, I'd be unemployed again in October, it will not provide ANY work/life balance. Only all work all the time. And there is the possibility that I'd have to cancel my trip planned for going home in July. On the flipside, I'd be working for amazing people, on causes that I really care about, using social media to make a difference. 

Feeling: Anxious. I recently watched a West Wing episode where the Pres is freaking out because he can't see how it would end if he sent troops to retaliate for the killing of Americans in the Middle East. That's kind of how I feel, except you know, no one is going to die from my decisions (I hope). I hate making a decision unless I can see how it will all end, how will I feel, how is this going to work out? If I can't answer those questions, I just obsess over the decision. It's not healthy.

Watching: Inspector Climate and I are still watching West Wing together, we're in the sixth season. Yesterday, I wasn't feeling that well so I also watched some movies like High Fidelity (one of my favourite movies of all time).

Reading: I'm currently reading two books: The Boys of Summer by Roger Kahn is what I'm reading aloud to Inspector Climate. And then I just started, Nothing Daunted by Dorothy Wickenden.

Looking forward to: I really am ready to go home. After about 8 months of not being on the same continent as my family, I get desperately homesick. So I'm ready for July (we also just planned a short trip to Tassie and I'm so excited because we're going to drive down to the town that I hope we'll someday live in (even though neither Inspector Climate or I have ever been there, yet!)

Making me happy: Despite how anxious I am over the job decision, I'm happy and relieved that I got an interview, it's been months and I was started to get really discouraged.

28 comments:

  1. I, personally, think you should take it. It will be another form of experience that can be placed on your resume. Yes, it is only temporary, BUT it will keep you occupied for the time being. AND depending on how busy you will be with this job, it may not prevent you from looking for something long term.

    I know it is a big decision but I know you will do the right thing. Everything will work out!

    Also, good luck with everything!

    XO Lourdes

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  2. Gosh, that is a big decision to make about the job opportunity, but I definitely don't want you to miss your trip home to see your family! Either way I'm glad you're feeling better about the situation.

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  3. The job sounds like it could potentially be exciting and new - but I would be severely bummed about not going home :(

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  4. All the best in making your decision. May whichever path you choose lead to happiness and great fulfillment.

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  5. Man, that's a tough decision! I don't envy you. I suppose 4 months of no work/life balance might be bearable if it turns into a stepping stone to another job?

    Which town in Tassie?

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  6. I hope you get the job, and I hope you would take it. It would be a tough 4 months, but the experience would be so valuable and affirming for you. 4 months is not that long, and even though this position would leave you unemployed again in the fall, it would be something to add to your CV to help find a new, permanent job!

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  7. Always so tricky. I hope it'll work out, somehow. All the best.

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  8. go with your gut but i'm sure it's a really tough decision!

    good luck!

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  9. Ugh how stressful about the job! I've purposely not been going after temp positions because I don't want to have to deal with the job hunt again anytime soon. However, the opportunity you're being presented sounds amazing!

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  10. I'm terrible at having to make difficult decisions so I have no good advice to offer! Can you reschedule your trip home without much complication or extra expense? Knowing that might make the decision a little easier. My biggest decision right now is whether or not to pay double to stay at a nice vegan B&B or go the cheap route and rent a room in someone's apartment when I go to Spain next month.

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  11. Sounds like you need a hug. Here's a virtual one: Hug! Hope the stress subsides!

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  12. I know that anxiety well my friend....Do you ever free write? It's something that helps me soooooo much when I'm feeling anxious. Often I'm anxious about something completely different than I think I am. But it might help to figure out how you really feel about the job. Also (& I hope this doesn't sound harsh b/c I don't mean to be & I HATE when I say I'm worried & people say "so, stop"), but maybe don't stress about it until you actually get the offer?

    ::hugs:: from across the sea :-)

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  13. So much stuff going on!!
    How do you hope to live in a town you've never visited? Photos from the interwebs? ;)

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  14. This is such a great post and a nice way to learn more about you. Al the best for the job interview! Thank you for your visit, Happy Friday dear!

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  15. I'm glad you have an interview lined up for next week. I have one for Wednesday myself and thank God i'm not having any anxiety issues with it at the moment; i certainly don't want one just before the interview

    Don't think too much about whether to take it or not; go with your gut feeling :)

    xo Stephanie

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  16. Haven't heard of those books, I'm reading the something or other son. All the books now seem to have son or daughter or mother as part of the title

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  17. Eek - let us know about the job! Sounds like an amazing opportunity though!

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  18. Good luck and God Bless!
    www.rsrue.blogspot.com

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  19. I LOVE HIGH FIDELITY!!! It is an amazing sound track too! Congrats on the interview! Who knows where the roads lead...just good to take those steps! Have a wonderful trip home as well! Home always makes everything good!!! So glad you get to see your family! Have a great weekend!!

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  20. High Fidelity is awesome. I hope you feel less anxious my friend. Let us know about the job!

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  21. I hope that the job decision, whenever it comes, will be clear in your mind. I definitely understand the feeling. I'll be thinking of you!

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  22. Good luck with the interview ! I'm suuuure youre gonna do great and get it ! :)

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  23. I hope things work out on the job front. I wish I had words of wisdom, but I think it is such a personal decision. I am happy that you will be visiting your family soon! I know it must be hard to be so far away from them. Hopefully you and IC can move stateside soon!

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  24. I am so glad I'm not the only one who gets overwhelmed by decisions, and job ones are biggies. I can totally relate to the fear of missing a trip back home, too. I think expat lives are just too complicated sometimes! I love High Fidelity too!

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  25. I hope you've been able to make a decision! I am a few days late here, but you never know what opportunities this one could bring to you. Good luck!

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  26. Good luck on the job!

    And I know what you mean about missing family. It's the other way around for me--my brother and his family are in Sweden. Due new jobs all around, they said it will probably be next year before they can take time off for a visit. That will be nearly 4 years. I'll admit, I harbored some bad thoughts about Sweden . . . IKEA, Swedish fish, glass blowers . . . nothing was safe from my sour attitude. Sigh. I'm better now. :)

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  27. I understand what you mean about getting what you want but also knowing that there are sacrifices to be made from that decision. I hope you will receive news soon so your anxieties can be put to rest. Good luck!!

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