Monday, July 08, 2013

Future Decoybetty says "cheese"

I haven't been the best version of my self the last three weeks. I've become obsessive about certain things that then I turn around and around in my head until I am so angry and frustrated that I cry and cry. So much crying.

I try to talk myself down from spiralling out of control "You have choices, you don't have to get worked up. You can let it go...It doesn't matter" and then in trying to choose 'letting go' I work myself up with trying to forgive myself for over reacting. It's exhausting.

What isn't helping with my inability to react like a rational human to things is that last week I got rejected from a job (well, two jobs...ok, well 4 jobs but only two I'd interviewed for). I never imagined that I'd still be unemployed by this time this year. It wasn't in my plan. My incessant need to re-react has been making blogging seem like less fun, which is why I'm not around as much as I used to be.

In fact, it so wasn't in my plan that I hesitated to book a weekend away to Tasmania with Inspector Climate who was going to Hobart for work. I thought "You'll have a job, you can't just take any friday off!" As it turns out, I can! So early Friday morning, Inspector Climate and I hopped on a plane to Hobart.

We often joke about living in Tasmania someday, well at least I think other people think we're joking. I'm not joking. Tasmania feels like home. It feels like the best parts of NH living combined with the best parts of Australian living. Hobart is a small city which makes it more palatable to me - this country girl living in Melbourne.

We spent three full days in Hobart and it's surrounds. We landed and there was SNOW on Mount Wellington...

This is the first time I've ever seen snow in Australia and I wanted nothing more than to go make snow angels and have a snowball fight, but people weren't allowed to drive up the mountain (Australians are slightly more wussy about snowy roads than I am, that being said if an Australian says the word snake I freak out, so there is no judgement here).

Inspector Climate and I watch a television show about a town in Tasmania that we've absolutely fallen in love with (with the town). And so when we knew we were going to go to Hobart we rented a car to check out this town. And we fell more in love. We picked up real estate brochures even though we aren't considering moving for the next 2 years at least. We were smitten. I particularly liked this sign that we saw in a little cafe. "Have you lost a chook?"

I also tasted six new cheeses. Four from the Bruny Island Cheese company which sells cheese at the Salamanca Market. I tried their: 
- Oen. Cow's milk soft cheese rubbed with Pinot Noir and wrapped in vine leaves
- 1792. Cow's milk soft cheese washed rind on Huon pine.
- Raw Milk C2. A hard cooked curd
- Nanna. Semi hard, herb infused cheese.

But on our last day we ran across another cheese factory  - the Wicked Cheese Company - and I picked up their Pepato and Wicked Blue cheeses.

There will be more to come on my Hobart adventures, but in the mean time how was your weekend?


  1. What a fantastic weekend! I've been to Tassie only once and I'm constantly wanting to go back... which is exactly what we'll be doing, come September. This means I must take careful note of these cheese places. Mmm, cheese.

    My weekend was spent in Queenscliff, visiting many an op shop and antiques market. It was excellent.

  2. Ooh, I do love an impromptu adventure . . . especially if it involves cheese!

  3. I love the chook sign. I want to know what the town is!

  4. Mmmmm...cheese! I'm stuck in my own job-hunt hell and feel like the stress of it could lead me to eat my weight in cheese (perhaps cheese and chocolate)! Glad you had such a lovely little vaca.

  5. Tasmania sounds just perfect for you! I hope that it is in your cards in the future.

  6. Tasmania seems so faraway and exotic to me; I can't wait to learn more about it!

    I hope you feel better soon. It's hard to make life-altering decisions and I can understand your confusion. I've spent the past few years in France just floating along and trying to avoid making any important decisions.

  7. I'm sorry to hear about the continued frustrations of the job search! I work with so many students who are doing all the right things but another candidate gets the offer. It's so challenging.

    BUT on the positive side, you enjoyed a trip to Tassie! I truly enjoyed the two weeks I spent circling the island and camping. Dreaming is fun and I'm glad you're already picking up real estate brochures.

  8. I agree with the others -- Tasmania looks amazing, and I really hope you get to live there one day if that's what you want. And even though I live in the Alps, I still get so amazed by snow-capped mountains :)

    Sorry to hear about that jobs. Same for me over here. I've been doing a lot of talking myself back to sanity these days as well, and you know what? Some days are better than others, and I allow myself to have those bad, self-pitying days as long as I do it quietly at home and don't disturb anyone else (Max inlcuded!) lol.

    I hope we both find what we are looking for :)

  9. I'd like to visit Tasmania one I'm [hopefully] living in Australia! And I love the chook sign. I also just love that they call chickens chooks.

  10. Girlfriend I feel you. I got 2 rejection letters today and it never ceases to ruin any high spirits I might have worked up. Keep your chin up soldier, God has something special waiting for you.

  11. I'm sorry for your recent blues. Sometimes I forget just to own my emotions while I need to instead of working so hard to ignore them. I'm glad you allowed yourself a break and got away.

    Am I the only one who doesn't know what a chook is?

  12. sounds like a great visit! i've never been to tasmania; heck, i've never been to that side of the world so it's awesome to see those pictures :)

  13. WOW... The pictures are amazing. I REALLY need to visit Australia. I have been asking Colon for a trip!

    Oh, and Colon had mentioned that it snowed in Australia but I didn't believe him. Does it snow all year round (in certain parts).

    XO Lourdes

    1. No, it only snows in a few very specific areas and it doesn't snow very much (like in terms of New England or Colorado or something). They do have some ski areas though - a lot of man made snow I believe.

  14. Awww, sorry for the crap news. At least you got some good cheese though. Cheese makes a lot of things better?

  15. I feel u dear. I have just graduated and has been job hunting for months!! Cheer up and hereby wishing us both best of luck in our job hunting !

  16. I am glad you had fun on your getaway, sometimes getting out of town for a few days helps life the spirits! Exciting cheeses too.

  17. Always with the cheese! I love it.

    Listen, nothing is more difficult that being in control of your own feelings. It is ROUGH. Let yourself feel for a bit. You will be okay :)

  18. I'm so glad you had fun. Life is rough sometimes, I get that!

  19. Have you ever thought of starting your own business? That might get things going for you! Hang in there friend!

  20. Oh hon, I'm so sosrry that you're having a tough time, but I'm glad you had a fun weekend away. :-)

    Sarah @ Life As Always

  21. That sounds like heaven! My heart is always walking some street in a country I've never met, and city is only fun until I'm ready to walk down a country road back home.
    I've missed your blog - but so happy you got to go back to your heart home! {{hugs}}