Thursday, August 29, 2013

My life is a perfect graveyard of buried hopes. That's a sentence I read once and I say it over to comfort myself in these times that try the soul. - Anne Shirley

Thank you all for your birthday wishes! Seriously, I adore you.

And yes, I turned 28 despite many a protest that I did not want to be 28, I don't think I properly did 27. Last year for my birthday I wrote about what 26 was, 26 - a rascal. I hoped that I'd be more grateful in 27, that I'd appreciate the year more.

Every year I think, this is it! I'm going to get my shit together, I'm going to be a grown up! And yet "When I grow up" is a constant mantra (well, that and "when will teleporting be a thing" - no, seriously).

I always find birthdays a time to be way more introspective than say the new year. This is my moment to define what it means for Decoybetty to be 28. And if I'd had a birthday cake, and if it had had candles on it, and were I to blow them out, I think we all know what I would wish for: A job.

I'm currently on the job high, I've just applied for a lot of jobs and pressing send on those applications is hope. Soon, I'll be on the job low, but I'm enjoying the high at the moment. The optimism and the levity that comes with hope.

In other news, I've started planning for when I'm a grown up. I've applied and been accepted to a yoga teaching course which starts in October. Every step of the application process made me question if it was the right choice. Not because I don't love yoga - I've been doing it for ten years - but because it felt like giving up. It also feels like a true step forward to future that Inspector Climate and I want to have someday. A future where I work for myself (as a yoga teacher mayhap) and we live in the country somewhere.

Here is to resurrecting buried hopes and catching new dreams.

15 comments:

  1. I like the plan for the future and having multiple plans - which is what it sounds like what you're doing. And I don't think we're ever really done growing up. My dad just said "when I grow up" the other day and he's over 60!

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  2. A very Merry Un-birthday to you! Here's hoping the celebration just keeps on keepin' on. And those dreams? Well, I hope this is the year they begin to come true . . .

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  3. Ha, I'm on a job low right now. I'm so sick of applying and getting nothing. I love how I finally got my degree and felt so awesome... and now I can't pay back my student loans because I can't find a "real job."

    Anyway, I hope 28 is amazing for you. It was a good year for me!

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  4. Happy belated birthday my friend :) and I now figured out the follower button and am officially following your blog! Cheers!

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  5. You'll get there. Keep your eyes on the prize!

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  6. What, no cake? Even gluten-free?!

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  7. There is plenty of hope in the air right now for you. Hopefully something pans out for you.

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  8. I'm so excited for you and the Yoga course on teaching. You never know you might be writing a best seller on being gluten-free or a Yoga book. Think big!

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  9. I hope it's going to be a great year for you!

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  10. If you ever do work out how to be a grown-up, please share your tips. I'm hoping it will happen to me one day, too, but so far there is no sign of it.

    I hope your yoga course goes well.

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  11. the right job will come along; just keep pounding the pavement.

    here's to a great 28; mine was great back in the day (omg, i'm 10yrs older than you are)

    -kathy
    Vodka and Soda

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  12. Happy belated birthday!! Best wishes for your job hunting--hopefully you'll find one soon, and hopefully it will be a little fun too, not just a job. But a job would work, too.

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  13. I am also starting a course in October in the hopes that it will change my life. I, too, am hoping that I will "grow up" this year (as in this academic year) as I still haven't managed get my (adult) life together.

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  14. And you know what? It sounds like yoga really makes you happy and if you can get out of bed at 5am to go to yoga almost every day, then I think you would make an excellent and motivated yoga instructor.

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  15. I LOVE the plan for your future!

    I wish I would grow up!

    XO Lourdes

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