Friday, November 29, 2013

NaBloPoMo Day 29: With an extra dash of thanks

At this point in blog land, we've all read a squillion posts on what we're thankful for. Generally speaking they all read a little something like "Friends and family, my partner, my job, all of you" etc etc. And there is absolutely nothing wrong with that, in fact it's pretty amazing.

In yoga philosophy, there is no positive or negative there just is. Everything is one (yoga actually meaning 'union'). It is only when we see the duality that we suffer. And once we can see all the positive in the negative or all the negative in the positive than we can be grateful for whatever it is. Now this isn't to say that I'm suddenly living my life solely by the yoga sutras these days (far from it).

One of my lecturers said that it isn't about forgiveness because forgiving someone or something means that you are coming to terms with the wrong they did, but there is no wrong without the same amount of right.  Regardless of whether you believe in this philosophy or not (and sometimes I find it really hard to wrap my head around...where is the right in climate change?), I think at some point we start to see the silver linings in our bad situations - of course never when people tell you to see the silver lining, at least not for me "Oh, you're unemployed, I guess the plus side is that ...." -  I'll be able to see it when I'm ready to see it and not a moment before, thank you very much.

Anyway, wow, that was an extraordinarily long introduction to the fact that I wanted to share some of the (non sarcastic) things I'm thankful for about unemployment.

I love that it means I can work from my bed and I get plenty of alone time. I never feel completely peopled out and scared that I'm never ever going to recharge again. It's just one less thing I have to worry about it, and I appreciate that so much. It also means I can be slightly more accommodating to the people around me. For dessert days, I used to always ask Kirsti to come to my place because I just couldn't handle the thought of being away from home, but now I am happy to go to her place which makes WAY more sense anyway because she has things like chairs at her house, truth.

I've been able to focus on kicking some Jorgita ass. I can easily go to multiple appointments per month, take the Chinese herbs and not be concerned about whether I'm wasting my employers money. Also, stress isn't very good for you anyway, and it's been a relief to let that go and be able to see what the symptoms really are without the stress. I've seen so much improvement.

There has been time for soul searching and breakdowns and general emotion. I don't know where that soul searching will lead or what it means, but I think it's so important to be able to have that time to figure puzzle things out on your own.

I'm so grateful for the fact that we have enough of everything and haven't had to worry financially (I mean, I do...but we have enough). And I love that when Inspector Climate comes home I can focus on him more and I'm not brain dead and feel like my batteries are running on empty. It means we watch less tv, spend more time doing things together (hello reading aloud!) and I'm not such a crazy lady.

My giveaway ends 30 November, Australian time! Which means that it ends 29 November in the US. So you still have a bit of time to get your entries in! Go here.

5 comments:

  1. yesss! when i was off for 9 months, it was wonderful! i'm looking forward to that again :)

    -kathy
    Vodka and Soda

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  2. I like the silver linings you found here. I was unemployed for a few months a couple of years back and I used that time to begin running and exercising!

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  3. I worry about money ALL THE TIME. I have to remind myself sometimes that we're okay and I shouldn't worry so much.

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  4. I love the optimism in this post!!

    Oh and I hope you had an amazing Thanksgiving
    XO Lourdes

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  5. Definitely a fan of the silver linings that you've found and I'm also really glad that healthwise you are feeling much better - those are definite pluses to me

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